VICTIM!

IFY ARINZE

From ignorance and innocence fools are made victims driven by impulse so uncontrollable, so guiltless. But heaven opened with grace for an outpouring of unquantifiable bliss. When we joined hands and birth a deep feeling of sweet emotion, that is God’s masterpiece the loving desire to trust and obey.

Now I’m stranded in the middle of silence, cold, I shiver in weary clouds of sad curtain of rains. You make me remember memories of sorrowful facades. I’m still drenching in the rain draining my pale face in a tiring and forced smile of disguise and I’m dying so long unhappy.

I was only searching when you came, so we pierced into eachother’s eyes, that little space to nurture the visions of love. A love of rest to cherish and find but I’m still never finding the love a deep breath. And side by side we smile at eachother, There were times we whispered promised of grey blues but now I’m full of shame for my desires of pain. It cuts deep into the veins of my heart. Now together we live in deceit and upon the joy of anguish we dwell. Verily, verily, strangely we became strangers with a heavy heart of burden, the agony of promised broke and trust betrayed. I have fallen again……deep down in the dark hollow of my in-depth fear.

I thought we said we would try that we could discover, another struggling breath for a life ends in mere ducks of defeat. There is no joy in continuous sadness for what is faith without love? Where is rest if it only hurts to the bone. Should it end in out feeling? This punctuation shall through time be indebted. Only yesterday we shared a dream but in early twin lights and fogs today, I fell on my knees for the grace to remember and forget, to sleep again and dream a new dream of returning.

Everything has ceased to be alright, it is not as it seems we all must carry the cross of our guilt. I have decided to move on very tentatively. Someday I shall rest in love and my heart shall lie there forever. Someday I shall rest in love where I won’t be a victim anymore but a victory in love.